Semalam semasa di opis, mak sangat girang kerna laki mak bertubi tubi dok melayan gegambar yang mak paparkan dalam fesbuk ittew.. so very happy noks. I know it's a small, little and perhaps pathetic things for some people but it means a lot to me. At least he channelled all his attention and energy to what I like and about me. Mak balik rumah lepas opis dan lepas gym sangat gembira. Tup tup dia bagitahu mak budok Kelate yang kerja kat bar di Langkawi yang mak panggil dia gedebe ittew tetiba sms dia, lebih dari dua minggu lepas weols kat sana..I was like, what the fuck???? Of course, laki mak dah bagitahu mak bahawa budak ittew nothing for him anyway tapi tetappp ni dok layan dia SMS bagai...maka mak tak semena mena terus rasa macam nak sakit..panick attack bagai. Nak bagitahu lelebih karang perang dunia ke empat pulak. Tapi mak dah banyak kali cakap dah - jangan dok layan budak budak mentah macam ni; diorang ni agenda diorang satu je - nak pisahkan hubungan yang sedia ada dan nak rampok segala harta benda mereka; baik dalam segi kewangan mahupun segi..errr, that's it..kewangan, material. I know laki mak ittew sangat attentive dan sangat kind orangnya..maka bebudak bodoh sombong ni semua akan mengambil kesempatan! Not to worry noks, I'm fine this morning..kami dah kiss and make up again..tapi ada satu lagi revelation yang tetiba mak dapat daripada mulut laki mak - ingat tak si Pulis Bingai about dua tahun lepas ittew? Dia cakap kat mak, dia kalau boleh tak nak bagitahu mak betapa banyak dah dia berbelanja untuk Pulis Bangang tu... and he was right, I don't want to know because it will kill me deep down inside. Memang Pulis Bongok Bahalol tu dah takde dah dalam hidup dia..
I know how hadek hadek verangan ni cara dia kerja..I can read them like a book. That's why masa first first sekali mak jumpa si A ni, mak ala ala blanked him a bit (not totally!) because I know dalam kelembutan wajahnya, dalam kemesraannya terhadap mak dan laki mak, dia memang ada agenda tersendiri. Dia ni noks, katanya laki mak hari weols terbang semula ke UK dia cakap semualah dia suka kat laki mak lah..dia gembira jumpa laki mak lah..of courselah pakcik tu flattered kan?? Alih alih, the very night tu, dia gi jumpa jantan tua bangka mana ntuh, terus main kongkek sesama...so tell me this, what kind of sick fuck is this??? He's nothing but a nuisance to our relationship and as far as I'm concerned, if I have a power, I'll throw him out of Malaysia and letak dia kat tengah tengah benua Afrika sana..mrasa kau kongkek lah dengan Gorilla dan Zirafah sana!
Yes, my feeling is still unstable at the moment..and fikiran mak berkecamuk..but one thing for sure, WE both still love each other..but the problem are these hadek hadek verangan ni...I have no idea how to get rid off them! ***Bik Mama, ada lagi tak lebihan C4 mak nak guna? *ops!
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I know how hadek hadek verangan ni cara dia kerja..I can read them like a book. That's why masa first first sekali mak jumpa si A ni, mak ala ala blanked him a bit (not totally!) because I know dalam kelembutan wajahnya, dalam kemesraannya terhadap mak dan laki mak, dia memang ada agenda tersendiri. Dia ni noks, katanya laki mak hari weols terbang semula ke UK dia cakap semualah dia suka kat laki mak lah..dia gembira jumpa laki mak lah..of courselah pakcik tu flattered kan?? Alih alih, the very night tu, dia gi jumpa jantan tua bangka mana ntuh, terus main kongkek sesama...so tell me this, what kind of sick fuck is this??? He's nothing but a nuisance to our relationship and as far as I'm concerned, if I have a power, I'll throw him out of Malaysia and letak dia kat tengah tengah benua Afrika sana..mrasa kau kongkek lah dengan Gorilla dan Zirafah sana!
Yes, my feeling is still unstable at the moment..and fikiran mak berkecamuk..but one thing for sure, WE both still love each other..but the problem are these hadek hadek verangan ni...I have no idea how to get rid off them! ***Bik Mama, ada lagi tak lebihan C4 mak nak guna? *ops!
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adoi mak..sedihla mcm ni..kuatkan hati mak!
ReplyDeleteThx noks..do not worry, I have my career to keep me going and sisa sisa chenta yang ada ittew also keep me going... pls pray that I'll be strong uols...xxxx
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ReplyDeleteIt has been ages since i left any comments but i have been reading all your colourful entries. I shall pray with all my heart that the Higher Power shall protect your sacred relationship that you have with your Avang. People say if you truly love that person that you have to let him go, i think thats easier said than done really and completely crap too. I like your attitude of banyak bersabar and fighting and talking to your Avang about staying together. I think whatever does not kill you Lee, will only make u stronger eh! Sweetie pie!? I hope someday soon your Avang will "grow up" to all these distractions that he seems to get regularly from these leeches. But till then, he is so lucky to have you by his side. Take care and big hugs from me ok! ; ) *M* from Belgium
Hi uols, thank you for your kind words and advice... I am taking each day as a blessing from above. I will definitely let him go if he know for sure that it's not me that he does not want..at the moment we are trying to build up our relationship again..tak tahulah sampai bila benda ni boleh bertahan kan? You are right, it will make me stronger.. walaupon mak rasa mak ni macam doormat kengkadang..tu yang sakit hati tu but then I think we can sort things out but then what the hell do I know anymore kan? Hati dan perasaan orang walaupon dah bertahun bersama, masih lagi mak tak kan faham sampai bila bila..nak nak orang tu pun tak faham kenapa dia buat cenggini. Thx noks..really appreciate what you said here *BIG HUGS* xxxx
ReplyDeleteye benar nok, bcoz u've been gone through everything. stakat tactics basi budak2 tu, bukan dalam kocek lg dah, stakat hingus sajork. skali tgk je dah tahu kan? ni budok klate mana ni??> royalt skrg, nanti mak n geng2 anak2 burung pergi patuk sampai lonyeng...kabo derah!!*singsing lengan sambil tarikk diva parits skali* hehehe.....take care ya nok,nampak gaya uols kena caras budak2 hingusan tu awal2...
ReplyDeletekalau ada budak2 cam tu cuba hampiri semut, bukan aku patuk lagi dah. aku TELAN tak payah kunyah terus*ops emo ni hehe*
Always happy Lee that you use your Blog as your place to express your emotions. Even that you discuss the relationship here I can accept. At least this way we can see who are real friends of the relationship. Taking sides is natural in this situation (and this is one-side of the story but what I see it is fairly written from your view). But taking sides doesn't mean to attack one or other of us. And for the pschyco-analysts among us, I would say pschyco-analyse this a bit deeper than just what is written here before you come to judgements.
ReplyDeleteLee I also pray and hope this can be worked out. We keep talking. That way we understand better.
Yes honey we should always talk. I guess I express my feelings here because for the fact that I have no where else to express myself..not on facebook as that will involve family as well and we both do not want that, do we? All I was saying most of the time was how pissed off I am with these bitches. And you should understand that too. Anyway, I'll see you tonight and let's hope all is okay... :)
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